There is something about January that makes me feel the need to create. This year the feeling of creating is strong, but the desire to actually start working is slow to rise. I made an intuitive portrait of a friend recently. I liked how I shot it with one idea in mind, and as I edited, it became something quite different. Definitely stronger, and more in line with what my heart wants to work on. My mind wants to deal with provocative ideas that make people uncomfortable, but when it comes right down to it, I usually create something that makes the subject see something beautiful instead.
I am coming to the conclusion that as an artist, I have not yet found my medium.
It’s time to explore other areas of creative expression, like music and dance. I am experimenting with a yoga-like meditation that is really stimulating. I love the idea of allowing body and mind to move independant of thought and restriction. I like seeing where my body decides to work on itself, and how the process of movement helps to open up areas of tightness and discomfort, both physically and emotionally. Getting into a deep stretch and letting the mind go allows insights to arrive fully formed in my consciousness. I am understanding more about myself.
I would like to find someone who could teach me how to play the guitar that Shaun left here last summer. Every time I pass by it, sitting uselessly in the corner of the coat room, I feel sad and guilty. It sounds so beautiful when it’s being played, and it deserves to have someone pick it up and make something beautiful with it.
I would like to work with a yoga instructor, and photograph the deep spiritual process that yoga facilitates. I may like to pursue a yoga certification.
I would like to find some form of dance that would allow me to explore movement with confidence.
Perhaps by putting some of my goals in writing, the opportunities to explore these ideas will manifest. I understand that you can’t expect to get something unless you are willing to ask for it.